The last time I wrote I was really in a blah place, not to mention I was getting ready to travel overseas (again) for work. Finally I am back and hope to be a better blogger now that my heavy travel season has subsided. Sorry about that!
So many good things come out of the trials though. While I did have to go to Japan for work, my aunt went with me to do some traveling herself (although I posit that it was solely to keep me company). Either way, it was a huge blessing to not be there alone. She got to do some exploring when I was at work, we did some exploring together after work and on my last afternoon which I had off, and we got to experience dinner together every night.
Now if you haven't been to Japan, there's one thing about the restaurants there...they almost always have a sampling of their food made out of plastic under glass outside to entice you in. And boy is it enticing (sense the tone). I don't mind Japanese food...it's not really what we call hibachi typically, but it's not bad. And of course, the sushi is good. But I get very tired of it, very quickly. There are only so many times I can eat a pork cutlet and not be bored. Regardless, it was a fun trip.
And besides all the fun of eating in a foreign land, I know that there was a message I needed to learn on this trip. So many times I have these feelings of urgency to get home to my little boy. I feel like I should be home with him all the time and often feel guilty for having a full time job. I long for the option to be a stay at home mom (with no naivety about what that really entails). And yet, I gleaned much wisdom from someone I look up to a great deal on this trip. My aunt has three kids, one just starting college, one just finishing high school, and one just finishing middle school. So she's been there with having the little kids at home and she's at the kids growing up stage. Conversation after conversation we had I felt like God was reassuring me that I am right where I'm supposed to be. Not just with kids, but with how we're working hard to get out of debt asap, how we're working hard to keep our marriage our top priority, how we're working hard to manage our time and resources, and how we're working hard to stay focused on Him. Juggling all these balls is by no means easy but we know that all things work together for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose!
Part of our talks about kids helped me refocus on the fact that right now, where we are, we have it pretty good with our jobs and child care and life. And we have been given this opportunity to get out of debt quickly. And while I wish I could be the one teaching my son every last thing, the experience and the knowledge he's getting right now where he is is awesome! Anyone can teach a kid how to count and read. But it's extremely more important that I am available to be home with my kids when they are learning how to make tough choices. I don't want anyone else teaching them that. And yes, it does start young, but it's when they get to that middle/high school age that the tougher choices will come. If we stay on task now, we will be in a position for me to be home for that. And my flying to Japan or wherever a few times a year is well worth the opportunity to disciple my kids, the most important disciples I will ever make in my life.
Don't worry James, this isn't all about Jack. We are excited to be in a position to get to have you home soon...hopefully in about 10 months from now! And you and Jack are our two most valuable treasures we've ever been gifted with.
So many good things come out of the trials though. While I did have to go to Japan for work, my aunt went with me to do some traveling herself (although I posit that it was solely to keep me company). Either way, it was a huge blessing to not be there alone. She got to do some exploring when I was at work, we did some exploring together after work and on my last afternoon which I had off, and we got to experience dinner together every night.
Now if you haven't been to Japan, there's one thing about the restaurants there...they almost always have a sampling of their food made out of plastic under glass outside to entice you in. And boy is it enticing (sense the tone). I don't mind Japanese food...it's not really what we call hibachi typically, but it's not bad. And of course, the sushi is good. But I get very tired of it, very quickly. There are only so many times I can eat a pork cutlet and not be bored. Regardless, it was a fun trip.
And besides all the fun of eating in a foreign land, I know that there was a message I needed to learn on this trip. So many times I have these feelings of urgency to get home to my little boy. I feel like I should be home with him all the time and often feel guilty for having a full time job. I long for the option to be a stay at home mom (with no naivety about what that really entails). And yet, I gleaned much wisdom from someone I look up to a great deal on this trip. My aunt has three kids, one just starting college, one just finishing high school, and one just finishing middle school. So she's been there with having the little kids at home and she's at the kids growing up stage. Conversation after conversation we had I felt like God was reassuring me that I am right where I'm supposed to be. Not just with kids, but with how we're working hard to get out of debt asap, how we're working hard to keep our marriage our top priority, how we're working hard to manage our time and resources, and how we're working hard to stay focused on Him. Juggling all these balls is by no means easy but we know that all things work together for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose!
Part of our talks about kids helped me refocus on the fact that right now, where we are, we have it pretty good with our jobs and child care and life. And we have been given this opportunity to get out of debt quickly. And while I wish I could be the one teaching my son every last thing, the experience and the knowledge he's getting right now where he is is awesome! Anyone can teach a kid how to count and read. But it's extremely more important that I am available to be home with my kids when they are learning how to make tough choices. I don't want anyone else teaching them that. And yes, it does start young, but it's when they get to that middle/high school age that the tougher choices will come. If we stay on task now, we will be in a position for me to be home for that. And my flying to Japan or wherever a few times a year is well worth the opportunity to disciple my kids, the most important disciples I will ever make in my life.
Don't worry James, this isn't all about Jack. We are excited to be in a position to get to have you home soon...hopefully in about 10 months from now! And you and Jack are our two most valuable treasures we've ever been gifted with.
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