Everyone looks at the job postings regularly, don't they? Maybe I more than others. Just for the record, I'm not leaving my job anytime soon. I have a great job that pays me well and gives me a wonderful amount of flexibility which is awesome with my family close by. But that doesn't mean I don't peruse every now and then. Right now, my hunt is typically more for teaching jobs for my husband. But sometimes I look throughout the world...sometimes I look in Uganda.
I don't know what the obsession is. Not just with Uganda, but with looking for jobs throughout the world. And yet when I see these different UN organizations (or should I say organisations) and NGOs doing wonderful, life changing things in the world, it does make me wonder...should I be doing that? Now don't get me wrong, I have my moments of materialism. I love the comforts of the Western world. When the pool pump breaks we have major issues in our house. And yet some of the times I have been most content have been sitting in a village in Haiti feeding a young group of VBS-goers, sitting on a hill in Mexico after just having built a house for an impoverished family, or meeting with college girls daily. I think we all go through times where we question what we're doing in life. When I was living in Raleigh I knew that was only for a time of my life but I loved every minute of it (well, not EVERY minute). I thought counseling would be the next step for me...it was not. Instead marriage and a baby were. And taking care of my family is definitely the highlight of my life right now and my most important responsibility.
I know as humans we can romanticize things we don't have or aren't. The thought of living in Uganda tugs on my heart right now. But I believe it's purely for the reason of wanting to be near him. If taking care of my family is my number one goal at this point, then I have to include my entire family, one of which is in Uganda. But moving to Uganda does nothing for me/us right now. It's just a selfish desire that is not helpful to my husband or my son (really, to either of them). But that doesn't mean I haven't looked!
I don't know what the obsession is. Not just with Uganda, but with looking for jobs throughout the world. And yet when I see these different UN organizations (or should I say organisations) and NGOs doing wonderful, life changing things in the world, it does make me wonder...should I be doing that? Now don't get me wrong, I have my moments of materialism. I love the comforts of the Western world. When the pool pump breaks we have major issues in our house. And yet some of the times I have been most content have been sitting in a village in Haiti feeding a young group of VBS-goers, sitting on a hill in Mexico after just having built a house for an impoverished family, or meeting with college girls daily. I think we all go through times where we question what we're doing in life. When I was living in Raleigh I knew that was only for a time of my life but I loved every minute of it (well, not EVERY minute). I thought counseling would be the next step for me...it was not. Instead marriage and a baby were. And taking care of my family is definitely the highlight of my life right now and my most important responsibility.
I know as humans we can romanticize things we don't have or aren't. The thought of living in Uganda tugs on my heart right now. But I believe it's purely for the reason of wanting to be near him. If taking care of my family is my number one goal at this point, then I have to include my entire family, one of which is in Uganda. But moving to Uganda does nothing for me/us right now. It's just a selfish desire that is not helpful to my husband or my son (really, to either of them). But that doesn't mean I haven't looked!
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